How I ended up in the world of "stay at home mom"-dom is slightly different than most of my friends. I taught in a school I loved after my first child was born. After the birth of my second child I did my first stint in the world of SAHM. After four very fulfilling years I was able go back to teach at my children's school. It could not have been more ideal. However, my daughter has a chronic illness that sometimes leads to long hospital stays. During the 2008-2009 school year the hospital stays became more frequent and my guilt of trying to be in two places at once did too. On top of that my husband's job required more traveling than ever before. I gave up my career for my family. It wasn't exactly where I saw myself but it was where I needed to be.
It was an odd thing to be a "stay at homer" while my kids were in school. Fortunately I haven't been needed at the hospital bed size during this stay at home stint. (that ole Murphy's law) so I do waffle with going back to work. I just know in my heart that my heart wouldn't be in it at this time. I also find that I get a lot of comments from friends and family members. Everyone has an opinion on where I should be. Funny thing is no one is living this life but me. Some of my friends have been SAHM since there first borns were born and never looked back. Some of my friends have gone back to work. Most of my friends, I think, think the grass is greener. I know it took me the better part of a year to get used to this new life of mine. I no longer apologize when I feel people are jealous. I am lucky to be able to make the choice I made. Some of my friends whose children have the same illness as my daughter aren't able to walk away from a job.
I'm going to keep taking life one day at a time.
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